I am very scared of late evening calls from a close relative or even my parents. Everytime those unexpected hour calls will announce some of my close one's death. Everytime I picked up that phone, my thoughts always overwhelm me .... "with whom hasn't I done all the things I wish I should have done already ?"
2006 Feb 21 around 10pm, my dad called. My Grandpa passed away.
I haven't been back home for a year and I recently just went back. Grandma had a weak lung and on medication for about 2 years, finally she got much better and went home from distant hospital. Not long after reaching home, she left calmly in her sleep. That was a few months back ...
I worried about grandpa because everytime one life partner disappear, the other wouldn't stay long. So I went back and I visited Grandpa. 3 weeks before I went home, Grandpa surprisingly dropped by instead. I saw him, he was as steady and cheerful as he has always been. He met my youngest daughter, only 2 months old then. I felt greatful. My plan to go home stays. 2 days before going back, grandpa was admited to hospital because there were too much water in his stomach. A few days later, I met him in hospital. he was as steady and as cheerful as he has always been. I felt thankful to life.
One of the discussions even go like this ... Uncle said, "... the test result hasn't come back yet, it could be nothing or it could be something ... ". Before uncle finished his words, grandpa cut in, "It got to be something, what do you mean it could be nothing. Its just a matter of big problem or small ...". Knowing grandpa, I smile in my heart. He has always been my idol. He never underestimate nor over-estimate any situation he is in. And he can always see things clearer than anybody else .... so I was comforted seeing him and left. I went back to my place, 3 hours flight away ...
2006 Feb 21 around 10pm, dad called. Grandpa passed away.
I was sad ... how could god takes him away so fast ?
I regret ... I didn't hug him good bye when I left.
I am ANGRY ... why is the stupid test result take such a long time ... it could have saved him !
Anger prevails and its damn true ... what the hell has gone wrong with this society ? Isn't hospital suppose to help people like this ? Why does a test like this had to be sent to a distant lab and take such a long time before a cure could be identified ?
Assuming the water in his stomach in a warning to all this. God has given us 4-6 weeks ! And our doctor couldn't do anything but just wait for the test result ? And you know what the doctor said ... 'this kind of things are common, we faced quite a lot of cases like this' ..... KILLER !!! DAMN KILLER with a LICENSE and PERMIT to KILL ... right in this HOSPITAL !!
Anger prevails ....
2006 Feb 21 10pm Grandpa passed away ...
What will happen when the late evening phone rings again ?
